I feel like pulling my hair out. I really do.
Let me just ask this to a few selected people: You said it was my choice. You said you understood, and that we’re both adults and mature enough to make our own decisions. Now it definitely doesn’t feel like it. You want me to be happy? I’m not sure.
Everyone seems to be blaming me. So I’m the bad person in this?
Blame me for following my intuitions. I should have just chucked that stupid notion aside, go along with what most of you have been saying, and stay miserable my entire life, right? Because otherwise, you guys won’t seem to be satisfied until you see me bawling my eyes out and broken on your feet before you will actually believe me and take my side right? Because you people are not seeming to cut me ANY SLACK.
The hurt one always gets the sympathy right? What about the one who’s been having a battle with her emotions for the past few months? Oh, right, I forgot. Because she wasn’t showing it, so she must not have cared, right?
I’m sorry, but I’m just so fucking angry at the moment that most people are making me the bad person right now. I bear no grudge to the other person, but FUCK, man..
I seriously need time alone. I don’t think I can face those selected few without blowing up right now.
THIS is why most of the time, I want to keep my relationship statuses private.
THIS is the reason I choose people whom I trust very carefully.
I have never been this pissed or angry in a long while. And to be honest, I’m fucking hurt. I feel like I’ve been betrayed. And to me, that’s the WORST kind of combination to be feeling.
For those who have not judged me based on the expressions on my exterior, I thank you.