I let my guard down again.
I actually poured out my feelings of distress, of anger, of sadness, all at once.
And I got a slap in the face (not literally, mind you) that reminded me why I had been so guarded about my feelings before this. And today, I unconsciously let my guard down and got a reality check as to why I shouldn’t have been so expressive about how I feel in the first place. When you tell someone your feelings; that you’re upset, angry, or just downright pissed, the other party assumes they know what you’re going through and attempts to make you feel foolish you ever felt that way in the first place.
The thing is, you may know. But you don’t know for sure. So I feel somewhat insulted when you belittle my feelings as if you knew exactly what I was going through. You may have gone through something similar, but it’s not this. You don’t know exactly how I’m feeling, and when you wave it off as ‘nothing’, and ask me to calm down and other words of sorts, it irks me even more. It feels as if you don’t really care for this, but is just giving me excuses so I would stop complaining.
I know now.
I’m sorry I complained to you and let my guard down.
It won’t happen again.
And to anyone reading this, never take it for granted when you see me smile. I smile a lot. Laugh a lot. Sprout dirty jokes like a sailor.
But never take what you see for granted. That’s all I’m saying.