Because yes, all my blogging ideas and thoughtful thoughts tend to pop up around this hour. =.=
And this time, I will discuss matters of the heart.
I can be so fickle minded sometimes because when it comes to certain things, my heart can be so determined and strong, while for others, it can be so easily swayed that it annoys me.
What I’ve realised, however, is that when it comes to stuff I’m passionate about (e.g dance and performing), I can be very determined, and not anything anyone says will change that. It would be easy to conclude that I’m a strong and determined person who fights for what she wants, but that is only half the truth.
Because when it comes to delicate matters like love, no matter how I try to be firm with myself and tell my heart to listen to my brain, it always somehow betrays it. After a bad breakup, I always tell myself that I would be firm this time, and not allow my heart to be so vulnerable ever again. I would tell myself that I would not let myself be so easily swayed by attraction; that I would be tough on myself this time and not fall into the same trap I’ve fallen into one time too many.
Unfortunately, I always tend to make the same mistakes again.
Such contrast, the power that my heart holds in this two situations, isn’t it?
Why can’t my heart be hard and determined in the other department as well; as it is with my passions?
Or why can’t one guy prove to me that not all men are jerks; who promise you sweet nothings in the beginning of your relationships, only to break them in the end as if it all meant nothing?
I’m not sure if ANYONE can provide me a GOOD answer for the second question without sounding even a little bit biased, so I’m gonna go for the first question then.