Anyone else experience this?
Because recently, I’ve been experiencing so much emotional turmoil (yes, I shall call it that) that sometimes, I just feel like I need a good cry. A good long, hard cry.
I know it’s normal and that everyone feels this way one way or another in their lives, but seriously. It’s like my emotions are like a haywired switch lately. One minute I can be all happy and jolly and myself, and the slightest thing someone does can almost immediately trigger my bad switch. =/
And no, I know this ain’t PMS for sure, because I’ve been feeling this way not just during my ‘time of the month’. I was never like that; it was only rather recently that I began to feel this way. And when I DO feel shitty, it’s like I’ll never feel better if I don’t cry it out, or at least let a few tears escape, and most of the time, I do that discreetly.
I don’t wanna be a ticking time bomb. Seriously, wtf .
I mean, if my past ‘experience’ is the main cause of this… time bomb behaviour of mine, seriously, I want to know how to stop this. I really DO want to be able to fully trust again and be the person I was before that unfortunate event happened. But I’m having a harder time than I thought. Trust really IS fragile and can be broken by such a simple gesture. And it really CAN affect wonders on a person.
I’d really love to say that this is just one of the after-effects of the turnout of a bad experience, but I can’t because I’m not so sure myself. I can’t seem to reassure myself on this like how I have with other stuff. This one feels… different. This one feels like it would be a permanent scar that I’d have to live with; trust issues, I mean.