*Takes deep breath*
This has happened one too many times for me to ignore this any more. A little warning beforehand, though; this post is going to be me being BRUTALLY HONEST about this topic that I’m about to talk about. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. If you cannot take brutal honesty to your face (or a little sarcastic humour here and there xD ), I suggest you stop reading NOW. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
Now that I’ve got that cleared, let’s begin with what I have to say. But before that, I’m giving you busybody snoopers ONE LAST CHANCE to STOP READING THIS RIGHT NOW. If you DO carry on being stubborn and read this, and I find that you rat it out to others asking them to ‘advice’ me and shit like that, I will either pretend not to know, or I will block you from reading certain posts in my Facebook. I MEAN IT.
There. Now that I’ve mentioned that, some of you might already know what this will be about.
Yes, it’s my FACEBOOK POSTS.
I understand that some of you have a problem with what I post/comment on in Facebook.
While I understand and acknowledge that some of the ‘advice’ is given out of pure concern, and that no harm is meant by it, there is still this little thing that you’re missing out here.
For one, I AM 24 YEARS OLD.
I don’t claim to be a know-it-all or to have experienced many-a-greatful-things; and I AM aware that I may not exactly be the smartest person on earth, HOWEVER; I DO think that I am aware of the contents of my post.
OF COURSE I know that certain comments will get me into trouble with the authorities. But none of my comments have been directly aimed at a particular political party or aimed at bashing somebody. And I KNOW SO. Go through my entire list of comments and posts if you don’t believe me. I DARE YOU. I really do.
And for those of you who worry so much about me using vulgar words, SERIOUSLY honey, even high fashion models use it. It has become a ‘common’ way of expressing oneself. While I DO agree that it is not exactly polite, I am sure, however, that almost everybody uses it now. The trick here is to know WHEN to use it, and with WHOM as a company. MY MOTHER TAUGHT ME BETTER THAN THAT, and YOU SHOULD KNOW. If you don’t, then well… you don’t know her very well, do you? At least we have been taught table etiquette, and to excuse ourselves when we want to leave the table; and saying ‘please’, ‘thank you’, and ‘you’re welcome’ where appropriate. At least we know how to lower our tones when we speak in public, especially if we happen to be on the phone. I know as well as you do that there are people who DO NOT practice these simple etiquettes. Who eat chilly, they feel spicy (siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas).
If there are any non-malay speakers out there who happen to be reading my blog, that quote basically means that the person who did the wrong will know it in their hearts that they did it.
Also, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE know that what I post on my Facebook is me being, well, ME. Experience has taught me to be honest. What is the use of being a shoe polisher? I mean seriously? Would you rather have me singing praises about you in front of you, but stab you repeatedly on the back? I dunno about you, but I’d much rather have someone be brutally honest with me (although I know in some cases that it might hurt… A LOT) from the off rather than have someone ‘care for my feelings’ and not tell me things as it is. If you are honest with me, then I can be honest with you too, and we can both know how the other is TRULY feeling BUT, you must also be open to constructive criticism and be willing to CHANGE. That’s the only way you can better yourself from something. I apologise if what you read had hurt your feelings, but I was being honest. And do you know WHY you had to read it from something of mine in order to know? I’ll tell you now. Because I have tried talking to you honestly in person; I have tried confiding in you, but you just REFUSED to accept my side of opinion. You were so determined on me accepting YOUR point of view that you never took mine into consideration. To be honest, there are a lot of things I would have liked to discuss with you personally, but I know from all the years I spent with you that you would refuse to accept or even acknowledge MY side of the story if you have had no similar experience before.
To be honest, I have no idea how you came across what you read, because it had been posted a while ago. Either your Facebook friends don’t post much (even so, it’s quite hard for me to imagine how you just ‘happened’ to come across that post of mine, seeing as I have posted SO MANY things in my Facebook since then), or ‘SOMEONE’ happened to be SNOOPING around my Facebook page, happened to see it, and reported it to you. I’m just saying. Not accusing or pointing any fingers here.
All I’m saying here, people, is that while I know Facebook is PUBLIC and that everyone who has a computing device and the knowledge of an intermediate technology user can gain access to it, I AM careful of what I post. I DO take care not to be TOO DETAILED in something just in case. I KNOW what the consequences are. And I sure as hell ain’t one to publicly post my phone numbers or leave details of home addresses around the internet.
You’re talking to someone who is literally a computer hermit, people. lol
I spend most of my day in front of the computer and I LOVE technology. I may be no Techie expert, but I assure you that I DO know enough to keep me safe. =) In fact, I also know that there are a few stuff you can do to make sure that the information you post online will be safe. I KNOW that you can never be too careful, but please be assured that I DO take precautions when it comes to posting stuff online, ok? ^^
Oh, and on another note, to whom it may concern, I would like to ask you a favour.
You know as well as I do that I very rarely ask for favours (the proper, REAL, SERIOUS ones, I mean… I know that I’ve asked y’all for lots of petty favours… =p ). So here I am asking you for ONE. Just ONE, simple favour. That’s all I ask.
And that is, to trust me. PLEASE.
You may think that I have no idea what I’m doing, and that my decision has been made on a whim.
NO, it’s not.
To be completely honest, I have been thinking about it even BEFORE I started university. My current decision has ALWAYS been a priority for me. To let me go ahead with this would be to let me live whatever little of my dreams that I can.
THIS is what I love doing.
THIS is what I WANT to be doing my entire life. And I can promise you, this will NEVER EVER change. It has become part of me; I will willingly shed blood, sweat and tears for this and never grouch about it. I SWEAR TO YOU.
I know that I haven’t exactly been very good with decision making, but all I ask is that you TRUST ME on this one. I can tell you that it will not be all smooth sailing in the beginning; after all, can you recall ANYTHING being smooth sailing from the beginning to end? But I PROMISE you that I will see this through till the end.
This is something I’m REALLY passionate about; something that can make me cry just talking about it (in fact, I am now, to tell you the truth). Sure, I may not exactly be the best in it, but I sure as hell am willing to WORK MY BUTT OFF for it. And other parts of my body too, if need be. xD
So just trust me on this, ok? That’s all I’m asking of you. JUST TRUST ME ON THIS.