Hello and welcome 2013! ^^
I will start this year unlike how I’ve started my other 24 years (that reminds me.. I’ll be 25 this year wtf >< I’m getting old dammit!).
For the past years, on every new year, like other people, I make resolutions; goals I want to achieve for the next 12 months.
But I’ve realised: why choose a particular date to better yourself/your life, when you should be doing that any other day for the entire year? Aha~ ;)
So this year, I have not made any resolutions. Instead, I chose to do what I’ve mentioned in my previous post.
Instead of vowing what to do better at the beginning of every year, why not NOT expect anything; and instead jot down every good thing that have happened to you? Wouldn’t that make you feel more thankful? (Hey, I guess I can’t get rid of the idea of The Magic now.. because being thankful has become the basis of everything I do now. ^^)
Also, if you were to jot down the good stuff instead of being disappointed with what did not happen; reading the list as it grows, especially when you’re not feeling too happy, will actually make you feel a little better.
Well at least it does for me.
So beginning monthly, I shall jot down every good thing that happens to me this year and record them here, to remind myself of the good stuff whenever I happen to be feeling ungrateful or something. =p
1st – Went shopping mainly to buy my sandals, which were about to decapitate itself anytime soon. Wanted to get a good pair in hopes that it would last longer so I don’t have to constantly get new sandals. (Normally buying from Bata, thanks to dad… literally, BATA – Buy And Throw Away. == ) Ended up getting a pair of Sembonia sandals, which the boyfie offered to pay for. ^^ Then went on to The Face Shop to get my facial needs. Which, also, the boyfie offered to pay for. So that’s a total of RM160 worth of stuff I got, free. Thank you, thank you, thank you! ^^
6th – I seem to be enjoying work a little more. Sure, there are still things I dread about it, but it has become that much more bearable. But more than anything, I look forward to lunchtime out of the hotel everyday. Haha. =) So thank you, thank you, thank you.
12th – I had my first class back from holiday. It feels great to have my muscles aching again (if my muscles don’t ache for a long time, I feel like a slob. >< ) Plus the concert last month has actually made me more eager to get fit and to keep performing/dancing. While I have no idea when my next ‘performance’ will be, I’m contented just teaching at the moment. So for the opportunity to continue doing what I love, thank you, thank you, thank you.
30th – I think that for most people, the kind of day I had today is nothing to be thankful about. I just found out that I was going to be changing ‘sections’ (I won’t reveal too much lest the people who have to interact with me on a daily basis come across this), and that I was probably gonna be handed more than I can chew. Today itself revealed a very frustrating day from the off, and I swore my brain was about to shut down. BUT, I managed to get a hold of something SO good to be thankful for.
Someone told me in the most sincere way that they had faith in me. This person admitted that yes, I wasn’t exactly the most observant nor had the most attention to detail, but they had said that they believed I could do it; that all I lacked was focus. This person even offered to fill me up knowledge-wise on all the things that had been my weakness. This person, despite their busy schedule, offered to SHOW me what I wasn’t clear with to help me better understand. I was VERY touched.
I won’t mention names, but I’m sure you know who you are. And know that what you said means waaayyy more to me than you will ever know. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
6th & 7th – I am VERY thankful to have had these two days; to spend it with friends I love. Two dinners in a row and getting to hang out with people other than the usual people I hang out with. Yes, I mean friends, not colleagues, if you get my drift. So thank you, thank you, thank you.
4th – Alright, I’ll admit… I feel… relieved. Like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulder. To be completely honest, all this while, I’ve just enjoyed the company. Let’s just say that… when it came to adhering to the rules, there were certain ones that were strongly against my beliefs, and that was kind of sad because it kept clashing, and I was completely powerless to changing it. So I’m thankful that I don’t have to deal with it anymore. But I do admit, I miss my friends there. Thank you, thank you, thank you. SERIOUSLY.
7th – 10th – I guess this is gonna be a date that I will always remember. <3 PULAU PERHENTIAN!! xD I dunno what is it about that place, but I think it has made me love beaches. I mean, I already do, but before this I didn’t really like the fact that it makes your hair and skin all sticky, and that swimming in the beach will cause sand to go in your undies. (Hey, it’s uncomfortable! >< ) But I had a ball there. It was definitely the getaway I had much needed after the past 5 months. Thank you, thank you, thank you. <3
31st – I dunno what it is about today, but you seem more… sweet, more loving. And it’s a good thing. =) Now if only you can be that way all the time… Still, thank you, thank you, thank you. ^^
19th – Boyfie got me a slimming drink. For a month, it costs RM400 and that’s A LOT. I’m really grateful that he was willing to spend that kind of money on me. ^^ Thank you, thank you, thank you! <3
21st – I got a message from Lika about how she was serious about helping me ‘do what I love’; dance, of course. It looks like I’ll be dancing again very soon. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!
27th – I feel bad for not updating this so long, but truth be told, I kind of forgotten about it. And it’s horrible, I know. >< Almost half the year went by without being thankful?? Nah. I always remind myself to be thankful for whatever happened to me, good or bad. Today, in particular, I would like to write about the amount in my bank account. This was the total I had a few days ago:
Yes, that much. Sad, isn’t it? =/
I was a bit upset; seeing as the first week of the following month, I had to go to KL for a course. Still, I reflected on whatever money I had left, and reminded myself to be thankful that I was still living with my family (that itself saves a lot), and expenses such as my car’s insurance and services were not settled by me. And wouldn’t you believe it, the next few days, I found that I didn’t really have to spend much money at all. I noticed that, and muttered a silent thanks whenever I was reminded of it.
Today, while writing this post, I went on my online bank to take the screen shot, and saw this:
Yes, being thankful really DOES attract good your way. I’m so happy to be reminded of it! ^^ Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!
23rd – And not a day too late of Christmas Eve! I learnt a very valuable lesson today. Not intentionally, seeing as the realization just came to me. I wrote about it here, in case anyone wants to read it. Thank you, thank you, thank you! ^^