Just a forehand warning: this post is so random, it’s probably not gonna make much sense.
It’s almost 6am and I’m awake, watching Skins (US). And suddenly, I feel like I’ve missed out on life. lol I feel like I should have gone out more, got to know more people, had more flings with guys. Y’know, live life a little more. But that might just be my foggy brain talking. =p
On another note, another ramble about life…
I have been very clear on what my idea career is. I have probably rambled about it wayyy too many times here.
But that’s just it.
I’ve worked a fair few places, and while I AM happy with my current job, I feel it’s still lacking something.
Sure, I like this job WAYYY better than my previous one, and I’m thankful, but… it’s just not what I’d like.
Which is why, perhaps, I insist on paying back my PTPN loan by the hundreds each month; to finish paying back as soon as I can manage, so I’ll be able to save up more and do the things I like more.
I love dance, okay?
I wanna live, breathe, eat and sleep dance. And once again, I’m not just talking Ballet here.
It is to the point that I feel any job other than dance just… falls below par.
I know, I know. I’m not being ungrateful for having a job. I’m just saying that I feel the loss in my life. It’s like I’m getting through everything, but that’s all I’m doing.