As is with my yearly ‘tradition’ since 3 years ago, this post will be about the things I am thankful for.
NEVER stop being grateful for what you have, I say; and you will get more. Reading The Magic was probably the best thing I could have done, because it taught me to learn to be thankful for what I have, regardless of how little. As a result, I probably went through this year with a more positive mindset than I have my whole life. ^^
And so, on with this year’s Thankful list:
1. The first will be the one that will never change: Family. They are my flesh and blood, the people I lean on to. And they always say blood is thicker than water. All I can say is, family is, well… family. They were the ones who made you who you are today; the ones who taught you all the lessons, good or bad. As dysfunctional as they are and as much as they drive me up the walls, they’re MY family. And nothing will ever change that.
2. Second would be the one that’s literally family; the one who I have known for the longest time. The one who knows me as much as I know myself, maybe even more. This year, this person’s absence has made me realise how much I miss her, and how no one could compare to how comfortable I feel with her; a feat, seeing as I rarely feel comfortable being with someone for too long, no less sharing space with them.
I’m talking about you, Ann. ^^ My best friend through and through, no one seems to come close to be able to make me feel as comfortable to be around as her. We’ve had our ups and downs, but none strong enough to tear us apart. Our blunt honesty towards each other is probably the main factor, and I hope you will always remain the silly, down-to-earth, simple minded Ann that I’ve always known and loved. =) Here’s to many more years of friendship!
3. Having a job. I’d have never put that in a list of things I’m thankful for before, but I’ve grown to realise what it means. I’d like to think that I’ve grown to realise the importance of having a job, especially where bills have to be paid. It made me appreciate the value of money more, and I’ve learnt to become thankful to even HAVE a job to begin with. =)
4. Although I mentioned that this year was the most positive year I’ve had, it was also one of the most trying of years. I have been taught about people in general. Of their traits and conniving. I’m no psychologist, and don’t claim to be one, but I think I’ve learnt a great deal about facades, and to detect them. Given, I’m thankful that I am strong enough to go through it; blessed with a willpower that, thankfully, was stronger than was expected of me. I’m still able to hold my head up high, and while I’m not exactly religious, there’s nothing that gives me more assurance than knowing that God is up there watching everything I do; and that is all that matters. He will see all the accusations being thrown my way, but the only difference is that He knows whether it is true or not. It will only be His opinion and what He sees that will count on Judgement Day, after all. So say what you like about me, and go ahead and spread assumptions. I have my main man up there watching over me and protecting me. =)
5. Somewhat in relation to the previous point, I guess I can say that I’m happy to be more in touch with my spiritual side. It may be all in the Great Plan, but I’ve found myself indirectly getting more involved with religion this year. I’ve had several stumbles with the Temple (work-related) this year, and found that as I kept frequenting, it sort of hardened my beliefs. It’s another way I keep positive with all the negativity; knowing that in the end, all that matters is what good and bad I’ve done, sincerely. So while under the watch of Him, why not do all the good I can? ;)
This year, there is not many in the list. But I believe that the essence of my being thankful in the months this year have been stated clearly enough. I WILL do another one next year, and who knows what will have changed?
This year, I’m content. Yes, even with all the negativity. I’ve learnt to push whatever that will not better me as a person at the back of my mind, locked it up, thrown away the key, and thrown that little box away with it. I’m a more positive person than I ever was, and I think that alone is plentiful to be thankful for.