I have always been a firm believer in Karma. Whatever you do, good or bad, will always come back to you in the end.
As with everyone else who believes in that notion, I try to treat everyone with respect, manners, and humility. I treat them the same way I would like to be treated by them.
But as I’m sure everyone knows by now, not everything goes your way. There are good days, and there are bad days. You will be able to find some good friends who take the karma you exude and return them to you; and you will find some people (I wouldn’t call them ‘friends’ in this case) who take advantage of the karma you give, and step all over you.
It is not uncommon, but let’s face it, IT SUCKS.
Last year, I made it a point to change the new year for me; by trying to be thankful for as many things as I could, good or bad. If it was good, I would be thankful and humbled by my fortune. If it was bad, I would try to be grateful that it had opened my eyes to something. After all, bad things that happen are just obstacles in the way of good things.
BUT, that should NOT mean that you shouldn’t speak up if something’s wrong, or someone did something to you. Aite?
Just thought I’d get that out of the way.
So this year, I felt, went by with me possibly being spiritually happier. Sure, I did have quite a bit of letdowns, I’m not gonna lie. But learning to be thankful has made it all seem so much more bearable than it would have been, say, 2 years ago. Learning to be grateful was probably the best ‘lesson’ I could have learnt.
But that’s not what the title of this post is about.
As I said in the beginning, I’m all about trying to better myself spiritually; through karma, and through being thankful for the little things. I somehow feel that once I can grasp those values, I’ll be a happier person in general, and hopefully, I can inspire others the way I’ve always wanted to.
But, there was a loophole to my goals. And it somehow all came crashing to me tonight, and I felt like I just had to write it down.
It’s about Karma.
As much as I DO believe it and try my best to always, ALWAYS go by it, I realised that I haven’t been doing possibly one of the most important characteristics of it.
I suddenly thought back to a Tyra Show episode I saw, regarding supposed real-life vampires. Karma was also one of the topics discussed, and as Sarah said, “I don’t will bad things to happen, because once again, that’s bad karma.”
Suddenly something struck in me, and I knew how I wanted to live 2014.
Last year I decided not to have a new year’s resolution, and instead focused on being thankful for stuff. And now, I know what I want to do; not just next year, but to start, if possible, tomorrow: to control my thoughts.
It will be hard; for sure, and I know it. It’s definitely not easy to control your mind when you feel strongly about a certain way about someone. But if I had been so adamant about karma, wouldn’t willing someone to have bad luck for hurting me completely jeopardize what karma is about?
So as soon as I can manage, I will try to rid my mind of all negative feelings towards anyone. It will be a challenge, and it will be hard. But it is something I honestly want to challenge myself with, and that includes not having any negative thoughts about myself too. Constructive criticism is one thing; to think negatively of yourself is another.
I will, from now on, try my best not to will negative luck towards other people. And I will have to sit myself down and make myself understand the difference between willing negative things to happen to someone, and just giving advice/constructive criticism.
When I can get to that, I’m positive that Karma will do the rest. ;)