Random thought: Don’t you just wish you could take all the times you’re genuinely happy, ecstatic, or just feeling plain positive; and I mean just take those feelings, and keep them in a jar to open when you’re not feeling particularly happy? Wouldn’t it be nice to be able to feel those happiness; those positivity, at the time you need it the most?
Well, I’m a positive person. Or at least, I’ve taught myself to be one over the years. I’m not very good at it yet, admittedly, as I do have my downs where I struggle to see the silver lining. And on those days, I wonder how it is that probably just a few hours ago, I was feeling high on happiness and positivity.
Unfortunately, it doesn’t take much to affect my mood. I’m not saying that I get angry or sad easily; rather, I am easily triggered and affected by negative memories. Which, sometimes made me wish I could be as affected with the positive memories as well. Well I guess it’s no surprise then again, seeing as I absorb other people’s negative energy as well (hello, fellow Empath here. *waves*).
I’m also aware that some days, it’s harder for me to get my positive mojo back on track than others. Nothing out of the ordinary there; we all have those moments.
But that’s why I wish things like the Jars of Happiness (no it’s not an official name – I just made it up. =p) exists. So that when you’re feeling dragged down or just not feeling too happy, you could open that jar, and re-live those positive, happy vibes.
For someone who has been trying so hard to train herself to be more positive and grateful, I can tell you that feeling down-and-out SUCKS. Because I hate feeling upset, I hate feeling useless and I hate that I doubt (myself and everything) so much.